Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Another Blessing
On February 25th, 2010 we found out we were expecting our third child. Carson was going to be a big brother!!! We were so excited and a little surprised because we had only been trying for 2 months. I still remember the shock I felt when we went for an ultrasound and learned we were expecting a GIRL!!!! After 2 boys I just assumed we would be having our third boy. We already had a boys name picked and never even considered girl names! I remember for weeks just being in a fog and thinking I was dreaming because I was in so much disbelief that we were going to have a daughter!
Again I was very nervous the entire pregnancy and worried we would suffer another loss but our guardian angel in heaven was watching over us. We welcomed a healthy baby girl on November 3rd, 2010. Madison Grace Wachter. I had another csection because just like her big brother she was a very big baby, 9lbs 14oz!!!
Again I was very nervous the entire pregnancy and worried we would suffer another loss but our guardian angel in heaven was watching over us. We welcomed a healthy baby girl on November 3rd, 2010. Madison Grace Wachter. I had another csection because just like her big brother she was a very big baby, 9lbs 14oz!!!
A new life
On December 15th, 2007 we found out we had another blessing on the way. We were very excited but also extremley scared. We were haunted by our last pregnancy and so worried we would lose this baby too. Fortunatley I had a perfect pregnancy without a single complication. We welcomed another baby boy on August 13th, 2008. Carson Ryan Wachter. His first cry was the best sound in the world. Billy and I couldnt stop crying when he was born. We were so happy to be parents and so happy to meet our little blessing. Carson was born via csection because he weighed 10lbs 2oz! He was a big healthy bundle of joy!!!
Isaac's Story
Isaac James Wachter was born sleeping on April 30th, 2007. Its been four years and I still cant talk about him without crying. There are so many unanswered questions in life and I still have a big question mark when I think of Isaac and wonder why he couldnt stay with us. I dont like to question God because I know He has a plan for everyone and I truly believe Isaac was needed somewhere else. I look at Isaac's little brother and little sister and I know that they are here because of him. Isaac is their guardian angel and if he would have stayed with us on earth then Carson and Madison most likely never would have been born. I just cant even imagine my life without my 2 blessings but I still wonder everyday what Isaac would have been like today.
I wont go into all of the details of my pregnancy but it was very complicated early on. It started out as a normal pregnancy but things took a drastic turn fast. I was hospitalized twice and the second time was when our world came crashing down. My amniotic fluid was dangerously low and Isaac stopped growing. He was 2 weeks behind in development. We still dont know why and we never will. The conclusion the doctors came to was my water broke and I was leaking fluid and there wasnt enough fluid left for Isaac to continue to develop. We were faced with the hardest decison of our lives. We could induce labor or wait until he ran out of fluid all together and eventually he would have died. We held on until the last possible second before making our decision but we decided to induce labor. I remember those days so vividly. They were the most awful days of my life. What hurt the most is that our little boy was very much alive still and had a strong heartbeat. Nurses came into my room all hours of the night to check my vitals and to listen to his heartbeat. That was so awful and I cried everytime.
I was given an epidural and drugs for induction. It was a very long 2 days but finally he was born on monday morning April 30th at 10:01am. I was 20 weeks pregnant. We held him and he was beautiful and perfect. We were sent home from the hospital the same day with nothing but a teddy bear and a memory box. The next few weeks were horrid. Billy and I leaned on each other and we got through it but there were days that were just so awful that I didnt think I could ever smile again or be whole again. That all changed on December 15th 2007 when I found out I was expecting again.
Not a day goes by that I dont think of my first son. There will always be a whole in my heart for Isaac and as long as I live his memory will also live.
I wont go into all of the details of my pregnancy but it was very complicated early on. It started out as a normal pregnancy but things took a drastic turn fast. I was hospitalized twice and the second time was when our world came crashing down. My amniotic fluid was dangerously low and Isaac stopped growing. He was 2 weeks behind in development. We still dont know why and we never will. The conclusion the doctors came to was my water broke and I was leaking fluid and there wasnt enough fluid left for Isaac to continue to develop. We were faced with the hardest decison of our lives. We could induce labor or wait until he ran out of fluid all together and eventually he would have died. We held on until the last possible second before making our decision but we decided to induce labor. I remember those days so vividly. They were the most awful days of my life. What hurt the most is that our little boy was very much alive still and had a strong heartbeat. Nurses came into my room all hours of the night to check my vitals and to listen to his heartbeat. That was so awful and I cried everytime.
I was given an epidural and drugs for induction. It was a very long 2 days but finally he was born on monday morning April 30th at 10:01am. I was 20 weeks pregnant. We held him and he was beautiful and perfect. We were sent home from the hospital the same day with nothing but a teddy bear and a memory box. The next few weeks were horrid. Billy and I leaned on each other and we got through it but there were days that were just so awful that I didnt think I could ever smile again or be whole again. That all changed on December 15th 2007 when I found out I was expecting again.
Not a day goes by that I dont think of my first son. There will always be a whole in my heart for Isaac and as long as I live his memory will also live.
How it all began...
The story of us begins on May 5th 1998. Billy and I met when we were 15 years old. He is my first love and I am his. We were inseparable from the time we met. We spent a lot of time together when we were in highschool and we knew that one day we would get married. We had so much fun together and we were truly best friends. We dated for 6 years before we got engaged in October 2004. We were married the following November.
Our first year of marriage was challenging but we made it through and came out of it even stronger and more commited to each other than ever before. We have been through some really difficult times together but each experience has made us so strong. In 2007 we were thrilled to find out we were expecting our first child. I was on top of the world and so was Billy. We couldnt be happier. We went to my first doctors appointment and saw the babys heart beating and realized how blessed we were and what a true miracle we were blessed with. I will make another post soon about our little Isaac but for now I will just say the day he was born was the best day and the worst day of our lives.
In August of 2008 we were blessed with our second child, Carson Ryan. After grieving for so long for our first child and being so heartbroken we were so happy to welcome Carson. He became our whole world and brightened our lives in so many ways. We loved being parents and adored our son. I have an entire blog dedicated to Carson and his challenges so I wont go into all of that here but I'm sure anyone reading this already knows that Carson is autistic. He is such a blessing and seeing the world from his eyes is so amazing.
In November 2010 we were blessed again with our third child, Madison Grace. Finally we were given a daughter :) Madison is the happiest little girl and she has brought so much joy and happiness to our family. God knew that we needed her and he sent her at the perfect time. We had been reallly struggling with Carson's challenges and although we were so fullfilled by Carson we still needed that ray of sunshine in our lives which came in the form of our daughter. Madison is always happy and smiling and it lifts us up and makes us stronger for Carson. She is so amazing!
Carson just turned 3 and Madison is almost 10 months old. Being their parents is the best gift. Our family is complete with our son and our daughter and even with Carson's autism I couldnt be happier and wouldnt change one thing. All of the challenges we have faced have got us to where we are today and I honestly couldnt ask for anything more.
Our first year of marriage was challenging but we made it through and came out of it even stronger and more commited to each other than ever before. We have been through some really difficult times together but each experience has made us so strong. In 2007 we were thrilled to find out we were expecting our first child. I was on top of the world and so was Billy. We couldnt be happier. We went to my first doctors appointment and saw the babys heart beating and realized how blessed we were and what a true miracle we were blessed with. I will make another post soon about our little Isaac but for now I will just say the day he was born was the best day and the worst day of our lives.
In August of 2008 we were blessed with our second child, Carson Ryan. After grieving for so long for our first child and being so heartbroken we were so happy to welcome Carson. He became our whole world and brightened our lives in so many ways. We loved being parents and adored our son. I have an entire blog dedicated to Carson and his challenges so I wont go into all of that here but I'm sure anyone reading this already knows that Carson is autistic. He is such a blessing and seeing the world from his eyes is so amazing.
In November 2010 we were blessed again with our third child, Madison Grace. Finally we were given a daughter :) Madison is the happiest little girl and she has brought so much joy and happiness to our family. God knew that we needed her and he sent her at the perfect time. We had been reallly struggling with Carson's challenges and although we were so fullfilled by Carson we still needed that ray of sunshine in our lives which came in the form of our daughter. Madison is always happy and smiling and it lifts us up and makes us stronger for Carson. She is so amazing!
Carson just turned 3 and Madison is almost 10 months old. Being their parents is the best gift. Our family is complete with our son and our daughter and even with Carson's autism I couldnt be happier and wouldnt change one thing. All of the challenges we have faced have got us to where we are today and I honestly couldnt ask for anything more.
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